Forgiveness is hard for me. Very hard. I know this about myself. I don't like it, but I know it. I want to hold on to things that make me angry or hurt me or make me sad. I want to hate people even when they are no longer giving me a reason to hate them. I don't like to let things go. It's probably not healthy, but hey, it's me. This has become particularly true when it comes to the love of my life and the kids. You hurt them - don't take care of them - disrespect them... then you have this Mama Bear to contend with. And for that reason, I walk around with a lot of built up anger and negativity (in particular to one person). I have to constantly remind myself that I cannot change those things I have no control over. I cannot change another person. All I can do is live my life the way I know I need to, take care of my kids the best way I know how and be an example to them every single day. So, I need to work on forgetting a lot of stuff - letting stuff go and realizing that making every situation a battle in no way is beneficial to anyone involved. I know, I have a lot of growing up to do still -- but I'm working on it.
Lots of Love..
~Manda Jane~
I'm fist pumping your quote over here. It is SO true!
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Word. Forgiveness can be challenging, I'm a great grudge holder. Like I rock at it and I may have a medal for it somewhere.... There is something so much easier about nursing your wounds rather than letting them heal. I'm learning daily that by forgiving I feel more free. There is a certain freedom in letting go and moving forward. An open heart always wins the day. And, who doesn't like forward motion?
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Yes ma'am. Forgiveness is SO hard. I wish that I could be one of those people who seem to get over things quickly, but i'm not. I have to make a conscious effort to remind myself that no one is perfect and some of us make big mistakes. HUGE ONES. And although it is hard and may take me a few days/weeks to get over it, that is always my ultimate goal.
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