Friday, July 1, 2011

Raves & Rants

Wow. What a week it's been. I usually try not to be too pessimistic or negative on here, but if I'm going to stay honest to who I am on here, I have to say, this week was a really rough one! Unfortunately, I don't love what I do. My 9 to 5 job is a job I found myself in,  because I needed a job at the time. It pays very well, which is probably the ONLY thing holding me there. But in the 2 years I've been there I've started having a lot of physical and emotional problems that I've never had before. It's not that the job is high stress - I can deal with high stress. It's the  way that I'm treated and those around me are treated. The environment is one that sucks every ounce of energy out of you and nobody ever has anything nice to say... but doesn't hesitate to put you down and say ugly things to you! Not the kind of place I can flourish in! I was about 2 seconds from turning in my 2 week notice yesterday... however, I'm a chicken. I know what I want to do with my life. I know what would make me happy. But I'm terrified to take the plunge! I'm extremely anal about money and bills being paid - so the unknown scares me. I have money in my savings that could sustain me - but that is dogeared for plans that David and I have for our future, so if I use that to quit my job, it's not only affecting me, but our family. Do you see my conundrum? So, instead of quitting, I took two days off and made a 5 day weekend for myself. That at least gives me some time to take myself out of the situation and re-charge my batteries and re-think the situation.

Anyone out there have any experience with working a job that just physically and emotionally takes its toll on you? What did you do?

Well, that's my rant! Now on to some raves for the week!

I got these little beauties in the mail this week from a giveaway over at Punk Projects. All Fironova is the beautiful mind behind these fabulous cards and you can find her here. I just think they are so beautiful and couldn't wait to get one in the mail to one of my very special friends. They are almost too pretty to even write on, but then again, they are too awesome not to share!

That's not all I got in the mail this week (it was a good mail week)! I also received my package from my partner in the Handmade Gift Exchange that was being hosted over at Craftaholics Anonymous . If you hadn't participated before, it was super easy. Basically all you have to do is sign-up. You get sent your crafting partner's information and you can email and talk a little bit to get a feel for who they are. Then you send them a handmade gift by the due date (June 30th this time). It was a great way to meet a new person - and let's be honest, we all love to get crafty stuff in the mail. This is what I got right in time for the 4th!

Isn't it completely adorable?!

We're starting a new diet in our family (not to lose weight, but for health). But I think I'll share a little more on those details later. For now, my Mom and I are headed out to Canton Trade Days so I can do some shopping for myself and things for the Etsy shop!

Hope everyone has a beautiful Friday and great holiday weekend!

Lots of Love...

~Manda Jane~


  1. You know I've been there and the toll it took on me. People don't understand unless they've been there. They say everyone hates their job. Everyone wants something different. But there's a lot more to it than that. The physical and emotional pain are impossible for people to get until they've experienced it themselves.

    You know where to find me if you need to chat, but I do hope you're able to get out of their and follow your heart soon. You deserve it.

  2. Unfortunately, a toxic work environment is something I'm too familiar with. We've had over 15 people quit since January. The Director is, honest to goodness, baffled by the fact that people are quitting. She likes to tell everyone that her door is open, but she doesn't listen. One co-worker (now good friend) decided to take a HUGE pay cut... in the thousands... because he was drained everyday. He was getting sick a lot and eventually started getting fussy at home. Since leaving, his health has improved drastically. I want to save a little more before I can make the next step.

  3. Hey, Amanda, I have been there and I have left my job and left everything behind and moved to Norway. And to be honest, I have never had a job that I actually liked or the one that made me feel appreciated. When I had a job in Norway, I realized that the job I had back home in Russia wasn't that bad at all. So sometimes you don't know what't better until you actually do some actions. Very often there is no way back but I don't believe in "a way back", I believe it is meant to be to lead us to some new places in life ;) I know it is easy of me to say since I don't have children yet but I think health is very important and when the job is dragging you to some sort of emotional hole -- no one is getting benefits out of it, neither you, nor your family. My health really improved after quieting my job. But I wish you all the best no matter what decision you make ;)

  4. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! I appreciate everyone's support and kind words and encouragment. I admire all of you and it's nice to know that I have people out there who understand where I'm coming from. Sometimes I feel like even those closest to me just don't 'get it' and I'm constantly worried about how my decisions will affect those around me. I never want to let anyone down or disappoint them. I have a lot of soul searching to do and some talking things over with the boyfriend - but I think I will get to a place where I'm happy and healthy!!